Lollagaging

Today my summer defined itself once the Lollapalooza lineup was finally announced.

I work up around 9... First thought. Lollapalooza lineup is today!

Then i thought, well it's 9, they probably wont have it posted until noon, so i fell back to sleep.

Woke up, same thought, fell back asleep. This reoccurred a few more times, the only thing that changed was the time.

Then around 11 I figured it was time to get up, I checked my computer and then started shouting, quietly with the respects that my roommates? Housemates? were still sleeping.

"llaaanannnncee!" ... "AAhhh" ... "Oh mh goooooddddd"..."aaaaaahh"..."LLANANNNNCEEE!!!!!" "AHH!"

Returning to my room, probably thinking there was a spider, or something fucked up haha I have no idea what he was thinking. I pointed at the computer and started jumping on my bed as he looked at the lineup.

Depeche Mode::Beastie Boys::TV On The Radio::Vampire Weekend::The Decemberists::STS9::Animal Collevtive::Band of Horses::Of Montreal::Fleet Foxes::Crystal Castles::Bon Iver::Atmosphere::Cold War Kids::Deerhunter::Peter Bjorn and John::

Thinking OMG this is fucking awwwesssomee!!! I hadent even scrolled down enough to see the others...

Bassnectar::MSTRKRFT::Deadmau5::Boys Noize::Kid Cudi::A-Trak::Animal Collective DJ set::

That made me go threw the roof. I was like Lance is your house unlocked(accidently left my phone there)?!? He was like yeah, so no hesitation i start sprinting to his house, run inside, grab my phone, press 8, send (Leah's speed dial ha). 

No answer, so I leave a message, one I'm sure she will never understand what I am saying. I get back to my room, 100% out of breath. I was trembling thats how excited / exhausted I was. She calls me back like 3 min. later, and I read her the list, still short of breath. We start freaking out about how hyped we are. haha sorry Lance, I'm sure it was obnoxious. But this is what Leah and I live for. This is our ecstasy, our drug. We feen for this shit. I really can't wait, and I can't even begin to explain my enthusiasm.

School is not going to end soon enough. It is the 21st and my last day is the 27th. I hope I pass math. I think I might, but I really have no idea. I did horribly one this one test, so hopefully I will have time to retake the test... :-/

After waking up and  calming down, Lance and I went to Oryana, ate breakfast, and attempted to acquire bridge cards. There is this big booklet thing you have to fill out, so I should do that sometime soon... Then Ventured off the best buy so he could get ANOTHER external hard drive, since he has too much music on his computer and his other external hard drive...

Dropped him off and went to crack open my math book. 

Sat there for a second and thought, I need some coffee first, and I think I will take this pill before I go, in hopes to isolate myself from the world and completely focus on my math.. After getting coffee I came home n thought I'd go on the computer while I wait for the pill to kick in a little. I go on ebay, my usual source of entertainment on the web once I get done looking at my usual things. I think to myself maybe I should get an external Hard drive since ALOT of my treasurable videos somehow got deleted from my computer. I check it out on Ebay. Ha find the same external hard drive lance got, but for $70 cheaper. Gotta love ebay... So yeah I get that, and hit the books

Hours pass. I am getting this shit. Why didn't I get it in the first place? How did I do bad on the test? I think it is really all about focus. I cannot function in that class at all when I am actually there in class. I usually work at 5:30 AM!!! And after work(12:30), I go directly to school. I have printmaking at 1, and I am usually late, but Doug Domine is the coolest teacher, probably on earth, so he is cool about it. Then Math rolls around... I can't stay away for longer then 30 min. Boom, I am a bobble head. I cannot keep my head up for the life of me! I am conscience about this and I try soooo hard to keep my eyes open and head up. I is impossible. I swear I can't do it. I think I just need some sleep.. Thats all. Possibly not work in the a.m. before school? I wish I didn't have to work and go to school, but whatever builds character right? If I ever have kids I am going to promise myself, they will not go to school and be obligated to work. Hopefully by that time education will be free?

Speaking of sleep. I need to go to bed. Work and then school tomorrow... 

One less day of school, one day closer to freedom 

Something is happening that is not happening.

The first rains of the season are here. I've been inside all day doing constructive things.

So far I went Michael's, got some paint and spray sealer, went to Meijer, got some healthier food, started painting my bike, and sprayed this bookshelf I have been gradually working on. I wrote in my journal which has waited a little over a year to be put to use.

I've been in a weird mood lately. I don't know why. Everything feels a little out of place?

My Mom was down here last week and told me she is finally filing for divorce. I saw that coming, but only like 8 months ago. It's strange, I don't know how i feel about the whole situation yet. My parents use to be the only little strand of hope that a marriage could last. Now there is nothing that can convince me at all, and don't try to change my mind, because it is set, and once its set, thats that. Nothing else. 

I guess I can't complain though, I've always said I will never get married, but maybe there was some unconscious part that thought maybe there is hope for that big yard, a garden, and that picket white fence. Thinking about this kind of shit makes me even not want to have any sort of relations at all because then I think, what's the point? Where is it going anyways? I just need to keep telling myself that it does not matter what way you go, just go. 

Spirit They're Gone

This is the beginning, so where do I start...

Well the weather is starting to brighten many spirit.

This winter has been a long one, and I think most everyone is happy to see a little sun.

Speaking of brightening spirits, school ends in 10 days. You have no idea how happy this makes me. The first semester wasn't that bad at all, considering I had almost every class with leah, and they were all art classes, so I was doing something I actually enjoyed. This last semester I had Eng111, Math, and Printmaking. I had to drop my Eng class because I was going to fail it. This makes me feel really stupid and really burns my spirit. I am usually a really good student, but maybe I have just lost my drive. High school is a joke, they don't really prepare you for much of anything. I also think the American school system blows. They really need to improve it in way too many ways to go on about, so I won't.

There is a lot I need to do more often... read, keep up with current events, learn a different language, travel, eat healthier, stop doing things that are bad for my body, get a tattoo, learn to communicate better. I could go on forever really, but maybe another time..

I am really excited for this summer. In 30 days I am going to see Animal collective, I am really too excited for this and don't even want to talk about it because I get to antsy. But this should be interesting, they went completely digital so I am excited to see what they have to offer. I saw them last summer at Pitchfork, and they were amazing. I think they need to have a little more going on, on stage though. I was expecting them to have some wild performance, since their music is pretty wild you could say, but there was as much movement as I would have liked i suppose. Their sound was pretty damn awesome, and I liked how they blended each song together really dramatically. You almost couldn't tell what song was coming next because they had their own twist to it.

35 days from now I am going to Detroit Electronic Music Fest (DEMF). This will be pretty damn sweet I think. The crowd might now be that awesome. Busy P, Benga, Flying Lotus, Bassnectar, Benny Banassi, and Tiga will be who I hope to see.

I am also going to Pitchfork, Lollapalooza and who knows what other concerts I will go to over the summer. I am determained to see the Yeah Yeah Yeahs this summer, and hopefully Marz Volta if they tour soon after their new album comes out.

I am going to stop writing because I am going on a bike ride! BYE!