Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Whats in store?
Not sure what to do, where to go, who to talk to.
All of that.
I am not particularly happy at the moment
I want to get out of here as fast as possible.
To where, I have no clue.
I hate this.
I wish I knew what I was good at.
I wish I knew what you wanted from me.
Do you want anything at all?
I don't think so.
Where is everything going.
I don't want you to leave without me.
I hate work. You work, work, work
work, for what?
"we're always waiting
what are we waiting for
we've got all we need right here
but somethings telling us we need more
we want all that stuff
all that stuff that costs too much
why are we working?
and what are we working for?
we want all that stuff
all that stuff that costs too much
we feel sad and such
are we owned by our own stuff?
we want all that stuff
all that stuff that costs too much
we feel sad and such
are we owned by our own stuff?
we don't want our boring jobs
to keep us paying bills for ever
so what are we waiting for?"-Yacht
This is part of what is on my nerves.
I want to figure out life.
I want to see things
feel things
real things.
I want to travel.
I want to help people,
understand people,
show people, show myself
teach people, help them grow.
I want to know how to make things possible.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Selling my CD collection...
If you want any let me know and I can set them aside and arrange something with you.
Here the collection....
Anathallo
-Floating World
Animal Collective
- Spirit They’re Gone, Spirit They’ve Vanished
- (2)Grass EP – one has a DVD with it.
- Sung Tongs
- Feels
- Strawberry Jam
- Merriweather Post Pavilion
Architecture In Helsinki
- Incase We Die
- Fingers Crossed
- Places Like This
Atlas Sound
- Logos
Atmosphere
- Sad Clown #6
- Sad Clown #10
- Sad Clown # 11
Artic Monkeys
- Whatever People Say I am, That’s What I’m Not
Arcade Fire
- Arcade Fire [EP]
- Funeral
- Neon Bible
Ani Difranco
- Reprieve
American Analog Set
- Know By Heart
Ari Ari
- Theres a New Sheriff In Town
Bjork
- Volta
Bright Eyes
- Lua
- Letting Off Of Happiness
- Lifted or The Story is in The Soil Keep Your Ear To The Ground
- Digital Ash in a Digital Urn
- Take it Easy, Love Nothing
Belle and Sebastian
- Life Pursuit
Battles
- Tras
- Mirrored
The Books
- Lost and Safe
Badly Drawn Boy
-The Hour Of Bewilderbeast
Broadcast
- Tender Buttons
Broken Spindles
- Fulfilled / Complete
Bob Marley & the Wailers
- The Legend
CSS
- Donkey
Cut Copy
- Bright Like Neon Love
Caribou
- Andora
- The Milk Of Human Kindness
- Up In Flames
- Start Breaking My Heart
Chin Up Chin Up
- S/T
!!! / Chk Chk Chk
- Louden Up Now
- Myth Takes
- !!!
Chromeo
- Fancy Footwork
Colour Revolt
- S/T
Cardigans
- Life
Deathcab For A Cutie
- Narrow Straits
Daft Punk
- Human After All
- Alive 2007
Destroyer
- Trouble in Dreams
Devendra Banhart
- Smokey Rolls Down Thunder Canyon
- Rejoicing in the Hands
- What Will We Be
Dirty Projectors
- New Attitude
- Bitte Orca
Explosions In The Sky
- Those Who Tell the Truth Shall Die, Those Who Tell the Truth Shall Live Forever
Flaming Lips
- At War With the Mystics
- Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots
- Embryonic
- Zaireeka
Four Tet
- Rounds
Gin Blossoms
- Congratulations I’m Sorry
Girltalk
- Unstoppable
Gossip
- Standing in the Way of Control
Grand Ole Party
- Humanimals
The Knife
- Silent Shout
Holy Fuck
- LP
Islands
- Return to the Sea
Justice
- Cross
Klazons
- Xan Valley EP
Le Loup
- The Throne of the Third Heaven Nations’ Millennium General Assembly
Make Believe
- Of Course
Mars Volta
- Octahedron
MIA
- Arulra
- Kala
Minus The Bear
- They Make Beer Commercials Like This
- Planet of Ice
Memphis
- A Little Place in The Wilderness
Murs
- Murs for President
Menomena
- Friend or Foe
Mogwai
- Mr. Beast
- Come on Die Young
Modest Mouse
- Good News for People Who Love Bad News
Of Montreal
- Hissing Fauna, Are You the Destoryer
- Skeletal Lamping
- The Bird Who Continues to Eat the Rabbits Flower
- Icons, Abstract Thee
- Sundlantic Twins
Mushman
- Eddie Do
Owen
- At Home with Owen
Panther
- 14 kt Gold
- Secret Lawns
Panda Bear
- Young Prayer
- Person Pitch
Prefuse 73
- Extinguished
Psapp
- The Only Thing I ever Wanted
Rilo Kiley
- Take Offs and Landings
- More Adventurous
The Rapture
- Pieces of People We Love
M. Sord
- Rick Mann
Regina Spektor
- Begin to Hope
Russian Circles
- Carp
- Geneva
The Shins
- Oh, Inverted World
- Wincing the Night Away
- Chutes Too Narrow
Shout Out Louds
- Howl Howl Gaff Gaff
Sigur Ros
- Med Sud I Eyrum Vid Spilum Endalaust
- Takk
- Hvarf – Heim (Heim)
Spoon
- Gimme Friction
Stars
- Set Yourself on Fire
- In Our bedroom After the War
- Heart
St. Vincent
- Marry Me
Tapes n’ Tapes
- The Loon
- Walk it Off
Tanooki Suit
- Roughlines
Thom York
- Eraser
- Eraser remix album
Tortise
- TNT
Tristeza
- Mixed Signals
Vampire Weekend
- S/T
Wolf Parade
- Appologies to the Queen Mary
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
- Fever to Tell
- It’s Blitz
- Is Is
- Show Your Bones
Soundtracks
- Across the Universe
- Juno
- I’m Not There (Bob Dylan)
Thursday, January 28, 2010
NYC
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Day tripping at Lolla
Friday, July 24, 2009
My Cosmic Autumn Rebellion
July is here and its been so far the illustrious segment of my summer so far.
I started out the very 1st of the month by getting a tattoo.
It's a quarter inch thick outline of a triangle on the inside of my left foot.
Being a bit anxious and impulsive, I scheduled an appointment.
I call and there's an opening for a couple days later.
Although impulsive and not 100% certain what I was going to get,
I felt very zealous about doing this, and had to do it before I had a chance to over think it.
Immediately drawn to this art I had wanted a tattoo once I discovered its existence.
I was determined to get one right when I turned 18. Clearly my parents would NOT allow it.
I had always really wanted a triangle tattoo of some sort. At first it was mostly because I had learned in my Tech Ed. class way back in 7th grade that a Triangle was the strongest shape/structure. I had always thought I was a fairly strong/sovereign person, so I thought it
suited me. So my 18th birthday was in the near so I started pending ideas of what I wanted, never really thinking of anything else besides a triangle or this drawing of a hand I had created my senior year in art class.
So a year and a half later, I just get an impulsive desire to get a tattoo. I want a tattoo. I am going to get one I thought to myself.
So that’s when I called and set up the appointment.
Then I start sketching ideas for about 30 minutes on a post-it note.
There we go. I had it. That was that. That was it.
The next day that thing would be sketched on me. Premaritally.
There are other little tidbits that had formed through the years on why I had wanted a triangle.
They may sound silly but they mean something to me and also reminds me of other segments in my life. Such being: In art compositions hold up more dominantly in groups of 3, and a few other art related facts that will probably stick in my head for the rest of my life. Also I am just drawn to the whole pattern of anything with the shape in it. It has always appealed to me ever since my wee stages of life. When I was little all you would catch me drawing were patterns of triangles, I even use to right my name in all triangles when I was younger haha.
Also I just like how it looks, I mean if I like the appearance of something, I am pretty sure it will appeal to me for the rest of my life. As if i were to get a tattoo of something that had a strong willed meaning behind it, my thoughts may change, resulting in a not so passionate liking for it.
All right, moving on to my next big venture in life...
About a week later, 7.6.09, I go skydiving. First time ever being in a plane, I jump out.
So Lance had always pushed the idea on me, saying we should go skydiving.
I sort of was just like yeah... sounds great but I doubt it's really going to happen.
I always said it'd rather blow the money on something... more worthwhile? But hell, once you soar through the sky at 120 mph what's more worthwhile?
So one day, one bad day for Lance at work, obviously during Cherry Fest; the busiest time of year for most businesses... He texts me and says "Hey want to go sky diving tomorrow?" and I'm just like "uhh.... sure...?...!?" so he tells me to go look it up; that some place does cherry fest jumps, so I'm like well okay... So I go and Google it and get the number. Call, but the only time we were both free was booked... So whatever, we don't have to do a cherry fest jump, so I called and set it up for 1:00 on Thursday. Sort of forgetting about the fact that I was going to be jumping out of a plane..
We got talking to Rachel Lipscomb about it the day before and she was all "Man that’s awesome! I want to sky dive, what the hell that’s awesome!" and we're like well you can probably! We will call in the a.m. and see if it’s cool. So Lance and I anxiously fall asleep. For me it was sort of like falling asleep Christmas Eve night, when you're still young and believe in Santa clause, and can't wait to awake and see what he brought you in the morning.
But once I was out, I was out.
Wake up around 11. First thing I do, and I mean first thing. Still groggy, I call the place to see if they can add another person. 2 thumbs up. Lance calls Rachel. "Hey Rachel, looks like you'll be jumping out of a plane today!" (Something along those lines, Lance correct me if I am wrong..)
So yep, we wake up, go to Oryana and have us a nice breakfast.
We drive out there, all they way to Harbor Spring, MI. Around an hour away.
It was a beautiful say, the sun was shinning, it was warm, nothing could go wrong.
I kept thinking, this isn’t real, and kept forgetting the fact that I would be jumping out of a plane!
Random burst of awareness would spark in my mind. Oh wow I going to be falling from the sky... wow... WILD! AHH!! and a quick flow of what felt like lava would rush through my veins.
We get there, it felt a little weird at first, wasn't sure if that’s were we were suppose to be... in the middle of a field..? But clearly it was.
We waited around for quite some time, waited for the instructions... Never really told what we were suppose to do, but only moments before strapping into this fabric contraption that will save our lives, and slowly flow your way to safety, but only after the quick plunge to the earths surface, sucking you in, with its jaws ajar.
We get strapped in, and then we're waiting in the van, which soon arrives to the airport. There we would no longer be connected to the world, and the next time we would be... would be afte drifting 2 miles straight down towards solid ground.
This was the scariest part for me. Taking off in the plane. Having never been on a plane before... and especially because it was an old tiny, non-commercial plane... It was a little rickety at first. After being airborne for a few moments I realized this was it. No backing out. Next time I’d see solid ground would be after JUMPING OUT OF A PLANE!!!
The higher the plane went the calmer I became.. But still shock waves of consciousness would enter my brain and again a strike of molten lava would soar through my blood like lightning.
As we were gaining distance from earth, the professional, yet comedic guys, that would be strapped to my back were making joke about throwing my out of the plane and then flying after me, catch me and then attach me and then float me down to safety. Scary thought...
But in reality I was attached soon to a guy, and then out of nowhere the door was open!
I guess I screeched a little Lance said.. Then the BOOM! I was falling... falling... FALLING! I was soaring through the clouds. Not to sure which way I was falling... headfirst? Sideways? No idea... the clouds were so cloudy... It was a little hard to breath for me, possibly from just being... well... I have no words to describe the feelings I felt. But then BOOM! No longer was I in the clouds. I could see the ground. Then poof! The parachute was pulled, there was a quick jerk, and we were floating down like feathers. He let me take control of the chute, and had me pull one of the straps down. No idea what it would do. Leading us cork screwing towards the ground. Then he told me to lift both arms up and then bring them down. It felt like I was on the down slope of a roller coaster for a moment, and then we drifted downward again.
The landing was smooth, I just picked up my feet and then he did everything else.
I made it. I was still alive. It was amazing.
I ran to Rachel who was anxiously waiting her turn to jump since there were only 4 people allowed in the plane at a time.
I was speechless I didn't know what to say. It was great! What a feeling...
But yeah then Lance and his guy came falling shortly after me. Their landing wasn’t quite as smooth, the fell over a little haha, but its common.
Then Lance and I waited for Rachel to jump and she as well was speechless.
Right after we took out exhausted dreary bodies to the car and headed home.
After that we had hip-hop, and house dance class. So drained we just sort of messed around and it was fun.
Most recently I was just in Chicago 7.16.09 - 7.20.09 for Pitchfork Music festival. It was everything I could have asked for and more. The trip to Chicago was great. It was one of the first times I got to go out and enjoy the cities fine cuisine, and conquer their public transit.
At first I was suppose to go with Leah, but the whole ride situation got all scrambled, so I went down there with Lance, Clayton, and Zach, and Lance and I stayed at Steph Hall / Zack Olsen / Andrew Rosinski's place and it was great!
Lance and I and went out and ate at this amazing place called the Chicago Diner. A vegetarian / vegan eatery. SOO GOOD! I bought their recipe book, that I was convinced Lance was lying about... haha. We also are at the Pick Me Up cafe, which was also amazzzzzing! We got breakfast there the day we left which was probably why we were late and missed our train ride at 2:35 and had to wait till 5 for the next train haha.
Back to the main focus. Pitchfork.
Day 1: we just saw Tortoise, which was really amazing. We wanted to see Built to spill as well but they played hours later and didn’t really want to wait... but that was that day, but it was still great!!
Day 2: The day my camera broke.... for no reason. Fuck you Canon. You're a big conspiracy. You are no better then Coke. A well-known name, only due to advertising. Without that, you’d be nothing and I will no longer buy your product. Thank you knowledgeable Camera Shop man. Anyhoo.
Cymbals Eat Guitars, we arrive late for their set but I get to catch the last few songs. They were great. Didn't get to see them play "And the Hazy Sea" but that’s okay, I still love em'. Plants and Animals. Never heard any of their music before this, but I enjoyed it, then Leah and I wondered a little bit. Met up with Lance to see Bowerbirds. Everything I wanted / expected. Beautiful. Their music, and the singers. The boy was solo cute! The girl as well. Their set was everything I wanted to hear. Their songs make me happy and will always remind me of a cute boy. Their lyrics are great, and the sound itself is beautiful and reassuring. Then we wait for Wavves to come on, so we decide to see Ponytail. What an interesting band. Very entertaining, but I don't know if I would listen to their stuff on my own. The girl is wild and just makes strange noises and faces! I got scared however because the crowd was getting rowdy and the gate that I was pressed upon was going to tip over I felt and the security guards had to push it to how it up, so yeah I peaced out of there.
Met back up with Leah. Saw Yeasayer. Leah and I had weaseled our way up the front, as usual. Yeasayer, again was awesome! They played Tightrope, the song off the Dark Was The Night compilation, which is AMAZING! Then led us to Beirut, which we were also front for. Music so beautifully composed. It was great. Oh yeah after Yeasayer, i left poor leah to see Doom for a little bit and then somehow made it back to her before Beirut came out. I ended up getting his set list. It was great, and written on a napkin! ha Love it. After that I met back up with Lance, wondered a bit and watch the Black Lips for a quick minute while they smashed their guitar, and went off and ate another great meal and the Chi Diner, where I witnessed 2 Yeasayer members on a date with 2 fine ladies.
Day 3: The final day :( I ran all over the place for the first part of the day, saw some really amazing screen printed posters, that I really wanted, but cant justify spending $25 on a poster... My day pretty much started at DJ Rupture. He was great, mixed some good shit, and Leah and I danced in the front the whole time. Then we dipped to go watch M83 to then further wait for the climax of the whole fest. The Flaming Lips. M83 was nice, Leah and I moved through the crowd easily at first... then the grains to tight and it became harder... We found some chill people tho and we were like 3rd row.
This was the most amazing show I have ever been to. Hands down. The Flaming Lips are out to please the crowd. And they succeed with flying colors. Literally. Flying Colors. Everywhere. They shot out confetti, had huge balloons floating / bouncing al over the crowd. At least 30 balloons, and at least, literally 50 LBS of confetti shot out. It was amazing. The crowd was great, probably the scariest one i've been in. It was a literal sea of crowd, i felt like a wave splashing around in the summer sky. Leah and I both had to crowd surf our way out. It was the only way out. It was amazing. I remember looking down at the people below me and I watched this dudes face in slow motion as my foot slid across his cheek, then mouth. hahah i felt bad but whatever. I was free and i was determined to get to Lance. There he was at the sound sent, in a prime location. I watched the rest of the show with him, and the finished off the Fest with the most beautiful song, Do You Realize. It was just perfect. Thats when mass pounds of confetti was shot into the air, and everyone was unifited and I feel, ready to die because what we had endured was so great that everyone could have died happy at that given moment.
After they were 100% done, and I was just shocked.. I got the set list with Wayne Coynes notes on them in orange ducktape. AWESOME! I could see that for 950945830485 of $ but I will not!
Okay but yeah i really cant write anymore. I now have arthritis thanks to this entry.
Goodnight.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Kid, how you surprise me now
Then Z-Trip, I thought I had head, but then I went to listen to it on my iTunes when I got back and realized I hadn't. You should say he is a DJ similar to Girltalk, but different. Has his own style and I think he is a lot better then GT actually. He really knows what the crowd wants, and he owns the stage.

